I hope this works out the way it’s going in my head. It’s completely by gut, so I’m hoping She guides me through it and it pleases Them.
I’ve had the inspiration recently to make a charm of a sort for Sigyn. I have not directly worked with Sigyn, but I have done some reading on Her and Their children, Narvi and Vali. In case you aren’t aware, Sigyn is one of Loki’s wives, the other being Angrboda. A good place to start to look at Sigyn, Narvi, and Vali is Sigyn’s Shrine.
Anyway, in regards to the charm, I’ve rather reluctantly taken up simple jewelry making. One evening, after stringing something for Anubis, I studied my beads (the majority of which are stone) and had a sudden inspiration. I started stringing garnet, tiger’s eye, and pyrite together, but I needed something to break it up. Now, these three beads struck me as strong Loki energy, so I tried lava, but I didn’t like it, and nothing of a similar nature seemed right. Then, I tried a piece of opalite. I, unfortunately, do not own real opal beads as they are expensive, but opal is known as the stone of tears and is something I associate with Sigyn, with fire opals for Sigyn and Loki. So I space each set of three with an opalite bead and I couldn’t believe how beautiful they looked. I knew, looking at the forming strand, that I needed to put a key on one end and some kind of charm on the other, but the only antique key I own was manufactured and Sigyn wanted a genuine, antique key, so I let the strand sit for a while to let things percolate.
Today, I revisited the idea of the strand and tossed around ideas for what the second charm could be. Immediately, the answer came to me: Narvi and Vali. If I was going to make something for Sigyn, I needed to include Them. I read once a very moving post on Narvi at Galina Krasskova’s blog entitled Honoring Narvi, and immediately knew that I needed to use an abalone shell pendant for Him (I strongly associate abalone with the element of Water). I spent some time wandering around E-Bay and eventually stumbled across a charm that featured a relief of a mother and her son, and though it wasn’t the prettiest one I saw, I knew I needed it. Perhaps it wouldn’t work, but I had to purchase it to at least check it out.
Next, I looked up Victorian keys, since I knew it was something I needed. The one that Sigyn wanted, much to my dismay, is a large but rusted key that went to either a castle or a jail, both of which are appropriate. She insisted on a rusted key so that I could clean it and make it lovely again, regardless of my lack of experience in working with such things. There is magic in the act of cleaning it, but I’m not sure what yet.
Last, I needed a charm for Vali. Vali is a silent God, and One that I didn’t know very much about. I had no idea what He liked. All I knew is that He was turned into a mad wolf and killed His brother. I hesitated to use any kind of wolf symbolism because I certainly didn’t want to offend Him or make something painful. I dug around a bit, but He seems to be a God that just wants to be left alone. I thought about it a bit, then remembered something I have at home: a piece of rawhide from the leg of a white wolf. The rawhide is tough and damaged, and though I’ve offered it to someone who works with pieces of the dead in her art, she said there was nothing she could do with it. The rawhide still has fur attached to it, so I’ve held onto it so that I could make use of the fur if and when the time came. It occurred to me that I could find a small vial, like one used for rice art, and encapsulate the wolf fur into it, then wrap it with a green ribbon. I found a vial in the shape of a beautiful crystal teardrop, and the idea of wrapping it with a green ribbon felt right. I need to check with the wolf spirit, but so far, this feels appropriate.
I just ordered the items today, but I’m curious to see what I might learn once I have the charms in my hands. It makes me a bit nervously to pour money into something like this, but it’s one of those things that wouldn’t feel right to ignore. This beading thing is turning into an expensive pursuit, and frankly one that I don’t actually want, but I love my Gods, and it seems like such a small thing to do for Them. A beautiful quote I read today on Galina’s blog (again; she has inspiring stuff), from the modern dancer Martha Graham, said:
There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open.
This feels to me like one of those things that just must be done.